Monday, July 09, 2007

Prelude...to Act 1.

Forgive me for saying this, but if you DO grasp the gist of this, I congratulate you on your brilliant insight - if you don't, well, let's leave it as it is then, shall we? Ignorance for the human world is after all, bliss for me.

The prelude of Ragnarok is slowly moving to its next wonderful act - and I am proud to watch it be orchestrated on its own without needing my inteference for it to happen. After all, I'm in a lassez-faire mode now - let things take its own course, as our dear Sisters would see it fit.

For to spoil the performance would be to ask to be thrown out of the opera house, no?

But tsk tsk...I fear that my change of heart would set to change the turn of events...for the better? But it would BE terribly BORING if it takes that course. Reconsidering it, I realize of the other shards of glass winking at me as I trode upon the given chartered path...and realize it does not matter either way, for the show has begun anyway.

And thus, Act 1 begun.



Offering the blessed pure green leaf, we finally opened the 2-way discussion. The Lady Trickster against the innocent and humble diplomat (who once claimed that given that post is no different from taking a dog's job. Pity. I would have offered a better post if I were in his other position, but well). I told him the requirements, he told me his objectives - and for now, we have reached a partial agreement.

1) We will not fight the Battle for HoE if you'd assigned one of our strongly influential (and sadly, hypocritical) member to be the same post - on par with that evil woman (to quote a fellow comrade). The whole legion had, in one voice, voiced their utmost dissatisfaction and objection at having to work under that evil woman, and would, (with my advice), ONLY, answer to any of the Art Directors, than her.

2) We strongly disagree (NOT opposed, as fondly put by our "nice" Ms.Prez) to giving half of our hard-half-year's earnings away to goddamn-hypocrites bearing the crest of Charity - it is JUST not worth our effort, and the Great Ms.Prez thinks everyone else around her is a brain-fuddling zombie to be ordered around. Even the diplomat quietly voiced his dissatisfaction for that decision made. I offered a bit of advice as per my role - take 1/3 or less, preferably 10-20%. PLEASE.

Now it's up to him to forward that little choice. And probably get burned in the process. 'Tis sad, for don't war require sacrifices...? At least we'd meet at a point somewhere - and he offered his aid that if we ever needed an outlet to voice our opinions, he would be ready to hear it. *claps hands* At last, at last.


And what about the rest of Act 1? It is coming soon. Patience is the key, after all. I have yet to see how the legion would react with this "deed of kindness" extended by the great Ms.Prez. We shall see...we shall see.

For now, something else has demand my attention, and regretfully I have to see to it or I'll face the torment of sleep deprivation once again. Lack of sleep has the tendency to drive this vessel mad, you see, and I do wish to prevent that from happening. Good night, and good luck.

-Lammy-

Sunday, July 08, 2007

Freedom is sweet.

Have you ever tasted freedom? The absence of it leaves such a lingering distaste of heartsick that you'd come to appreciate and savour the freedom when it was ever, EVER, given to you.

But alas, I too wonder how long this period of liberation can last...

'Tis be the last day that I'm freed from my eternal prison of Earth's suffering. By tomorrow, I'll be back, trounging the lanes and chambers of horror once again in this well-meaning-but-often-not education establishment.

But I could hardly blame the place. It's the humans that pissed me off. Sometimes, literally. I could imagine thyself trying to hold back the mental fury from exploding through these lips to cause irreparable damage, and often than not, due to the action of trying to bottle up all this anger and frustrations, it's slowly but surely taking a toll upon this human spirit/vessel.

So yes, I had one of the most difficult time to go through, the past week. Especially when loneliness crepts in and whispers its poison-laced words at you, making a mockery of your pathetic condition, and trying much to tempt you to eventually doing something irreversibly stupid. Thank the heavens for willpower and the perseverance of this soul to hang on.

So while I stood in the Garden of Hope to reminiscene of days long gone, I'd reassess my situation, and found me to be actually in a position of power to do one or more trickery. Each with its own consequences, perhaps as a little payback to what they've done to me (well, here we go on the wheels of karma). But after hearing what my beautiful protege have to say, I decided to let it all go, and I also learn an important lesson on that day.

The power of forgiveness.

It is quite...difficult at first to accept it. Accept the ugly truth, and to accept it with conviction. But I have done it, and looking back, I guess it is one of the right decisions made after all this while.

By learning to forgive others, you learn forgive yourself.

I understand, the human spirit is unpredictable. They're the Jekylls and Hydes of reality. One minute they're impossibly nice to ya, the next they'd happily sink a few blades into your back without you knowing it (and oftentimes than not, they themselves do not realize it. Amazing, humans.)

And thus, if one is to blame on the seven deadly sins, REMEMBER, it was humans who CREATED those sins, in the first place. I don't blame it on Pandora who unleashes the ultimate evil upon earth (for she tried to redeem herself by releasing a pathetic-but-nonetheless-has-its-role-to-play entity called Hope), and I don't blame Zeus for putting it all merrily into a little toy box for a stupid little chum to open, BUT I do want to point the finger at the two little-biped animal who'd overran this earth to its driest point in lifetimes uncounted FOR the misery they'd love to wrought upon other lives, all in part due to their selfish human nature.

Why do humans loves to watch others suffer? I don't understand. Most of all, (and a particular personal one), why do I see myself suffering for their actions?

Hence, I pulled the opposite response - instead of initially thinking to let the Earth burn (whether by the courtesy of the One-Winged Angel or Megatron or anyone else with the talent to destroying worlds...oh yes, that includes a Mr.Galactus), I'll just forgive the humans who'd brought me the untold suffering beforehand, to do away with the pain and agony, and let there be a clean slate for the two of us.

And thus, from that moment on...Freedom came to me on her two silver wings, and gave me a kiss on the head as a reward for doing so well. I smiled in agreement, and took in all that's left in her wake - and truly tasted salvation.

And as I'd mentioned before...freedom, has never tasted this sweet.



Alas, I truly wish them humans would not take it away from me now.

-Lammy-

P.S. Will be back at TOA on Monday 9th July 2007. Will be expecting the next wave of "destruction", and I'm ready to counter it - with this new-found realization.

Tuesday, July 03, 2007

Back from the beyond the grave.

Yes, dear. I'm back.

With a little bit of vengeance permeating from this soul, and a little bit of that stab wounds you'd get from the so-called God's beloved creatures known commonly as the Humans.

In a way, yes, I'm amaze at the wondrous things Humans can do - when they are nice to you. And in so many more other ways, I'm also frustrated at all the batshit and dumbcrap Humans can pull off too.

But I shall leave that matter to rest for now. 'Tis been a bitter year, and college life ain't improving - especially when you somehow come to this gradual realization that you are quite alone in the hellfire pits...

...with no one to go to...

...with no one to help you...

...with no one to hear you scream...from all that agony and pain you'd endured...

...no one to listen to your pathetic cries to let it all STOP.


It's actually considered a miracle that I'd lived through it all. Yes, depression got me again, yes, suicide was on my mind a few times too, and all thanks to a few well-pushed death-instintual buttons here, there and about this person. Suffering backstabs once again, it's starting to become so routine, I'd give it a shrug and said, "You know what? You, and all the rest of the human race, can be damned to Hell for all I care. I'm DONE saving your pathetic souls."

Yes, that statement rings truth - for don't I bear the power of salvation and damnation? *tuts quietly* And am I not known by my other monikers - One-Winged Angel, L, Rosenheim, and (rarest of all), Lammy-Loki the (resident) Trickster God?

Trickster God you say? Now before YOU condemned me for going a-worshipping a dead Norse God, please allow me to banish that little human myth, and let me show you a thing or two about initiating Ragnarok - one which I'm about to bring to the very Hell I've suffered in.

And don't mind me while I toss a little Wrangling or two in the process to spice things up, hmmm? *chuckles*

Going back to the topic, yes, I've comfortably assumed this Loki avatar of mine i.e. in common human speak, I meant that I shall speak in this manner through all my posts, whether you like it or not, and I could hardly give a damn what others thought of me - especially when you'd set eyes first on this strange style of this blog.

"SO old-fashioned." Haaarh. I'd like to divulge my true age, but you'd be very taken aback, believe me. I shall just stick to this 19-year-old human age for the world to see, for now.

And what of my other haunts? I'm not heading back to the first one - too many bitter memories there. There's the other hidden blog there too, exclusively for my private thoughts (or was it, really? come to think of it), and well, I just remembered this little brugh here when I was seeking a new place to let someone who wants to lend his/her ear to me to have his/her proper say here.

Likewise, I wouldn't bite, and if you could gain my trust (which is pretty difficult after all that has happened...my human kins who were once closed to me will be testament to that), I could really, be, the bestest of friends you'd ever had. (I blamed it on the Sagittarian blood I possessed that demands utmost loyalty to whoever we *try* to serve. Puh-lease. I'm the white centaur at that.)

So yes, it's official, I've come back to this virtual world under a different alias and appearance, tone and adage, and well...in keeping with this spirit, let's play a little mind game or two, shall we?

(in common humanspeak: Well, I'm back. Hit me whatever you want. I'd prefer nice welcome-back comments, but knowing you humans, a little acknowledgement would just suffice.)

-Lammy-

Saturday, July 22, 2006

WHAT HAVE YOU DONE TO DANTE?!?!?! >____<

I was shopping at the Popular bookstore at Sg.Wang, and JUST after I'd paid my books, I saw a familiar figure on a pile of Chinese books just sitting next to the counter.

They were in Chinese.

They have glossy nice covers.

BUT THEY ALSO HAVE A GIRLY-FIED VERSION OF DANTE!!!!! >__________<


I was definitely enraged at the audacity of whichever stupid IDIOT Chinese writer/publisher to DARES to modify, of ALL people, DANTE into some fucking redhead and claiming it as the HEROINE of the stupid book.

And although I don't read Chinese, the English translation beneath the Chinese title is SIGIL SWORD.

FIRST, YOU RIP DANTE AND UGLYFIED HIM INTO A GIRL. THEN YOU ROB FFX'S SIGNATURE TRADEMARK OF SIGILS. WHAT ELSE HAVE YOU DONE?!?!?

On the other books, the pictures have suggestives postures, but they are all CG characters. For my entire reading life, I have not come across a storybook that uses 3D COMPUTER-GENERATED CHARACTERS for a cover. None, so far. But the other covers, despite different faces, they did look awfully familiar, I just can't place it from which game(s), but only the Dante rip-off is pretty much screaming off the cover to be noticed, hence I care more for this than the other books...

Now, here's the original version of that Dante. It's a wallpaper, so practically anyone can have it.
Dante Wallpaper (DMC3)

Now, HERE's the rip-off-and-girlyfied version of him:
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As I've said, friggin' book's cover is glossy, BUT the image is still there. The. Fucking. Uglyfied. Girlified. Version.Of. All People. DANTE.

*starts rant*

YOU FUCKING IDIOT WHO TRIES TO PLAGIARISE DANTE FROM CAPCOM, YOU ARE ASKING FOR A DEATH SENTENCE. JUST BECAUSE THE GAME IS JUST A FEW YEARS OLD AND NOBODY MENTION MUCH ABOUT IT, IT IS NONETHELESS, CAPCOM'S TRADEMARK GAME AFTER RESIDENT EVIL, HENCE IF YOU THINK YOU CAN FOOL YOU READERS TO THINKING IT'S YOUR FREAKING ORIGINAL CHARACTER, FORGET IT!!!

EVERY GAMER OUT THERE KNOWS WHO IS DANTE (OR AT LEAST HEARD OF DEVIL MAY CRY SINCE IT'S CAPCOM'S 2ND BEST-SELLING GAME AFTER RESIDENT EVIL) AND IF YOU THINK YOUR CHINESE READERS DON'T KNOW HIM, THINK AGAIN!! CAPCOM HAS MADE A CHINESE VERSION OF DMC3 FOR BOTH THE PC AND PS2, SO WE CHINESE READERS/GAMERS ARE NOT AS STUPID AS YOU'D THINK WHO THINKS THAT YOUR STUPID CHARACTER IS YOURS!! YOU JUST RIPPED DANTE FROM DMC3 AND OF ALL ACTIONS TAKEN, YOU GIRLY-FIED HIM INTO A GIRL!!!!!!

A GIRL!!! DANTE, THE STAR OF THE DMC SERIES WHO CAN MAKE THE DEVIL CRY IS MADE INTO A GIRL!!

WHAT THE HELL DO YOU THINK YOU ARE DOING?!?! ARE YOU OUT OF YOUR MIND?!?!


CAN'T YOUR FREAKING PUBLISHER MAKE HIS OWN DESIGNS??? MUST YOU RIP A RESPECTABLE BELOVED CHARACTER AND UGLYFIED HIM TO CATER TO YOUR STUPID STORIES?!?! OF ALL PEOPLE, DANTE!! CAN'T YOU MAKE YOUR OWN!! AREN'T DESIGNERS SUPPOSED TO COME UP WITH SOMETHING ORIGINAL?!? WELL, YOU CAN FIRE YOUR STUPID ILLUSTRATOR!!! HE CAN GO TO HELL AND DIE FOR ALL I CARE!!

I REALLY HOPE CAPCOM KNOWS ABOUT YOUR STUPID LITTLE PLAGIARISM-AND-DESTRUCTION OF THEIR BELOVED GAME CHARACTER!! IF CAPCOM EVER FINDS OUT, YOU WILL BE SUED UNTIL YOU DIE YOU STUPID CHEATING BASTARD!!!

GGGGRRRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!!!!!!


*ends rant*

So yeap. Anyone out there who loves Dante as much as I do, spread the word around. Boycott this idiot's books. If you can read Chinese and know the author/publisher, even better, go and report him to Capcom. Let Capcom handle this idiots who TRIES to uglyfied Dante. They WILL PAY FOR WHAT THEY HAVE DONE. >____<

-Lammy-

Monday, June 26, 2006

Operation REVAMP: Success

As you can see, this blog's layout have been revamped from the normal typical standard Blogger template to a new all-white layout courtesy of http://blogger-templates.blogspot.com/ recommended by my good fellow blogger Denster. I especially like the graphic image at the top of this blog, kinda represent my identity here of your truly as the One-Winged Angel ^-^

I have not been updating recently due to some fiascos wrought in college where I had been reduced to a pathetic broken wreck twice. It's not easy to get up again to move on, but I did, with much needed support from my trusted allies at that time. And like what we people from the School of Intuitionism do, an eye for an eye. Vengeance has been delivered to people who deserved it, OWA-styled.

As much as I'd like to recount the numerous battles won, Father Time is not approving of me to be slacking at the moment (and true enough, work calls). BUT I will be back, mark my words. This ain't over yet ;P


Yours faithfully,
Lammy Leonhart
One-Winged Angel

Wednesday, May 03, 2006

Why Do You Hate Malaysia: The Conclusion

YESSSSSH, Part 3 is finally up, after a long hiatus and for the people who has been waiting so long for it, here it is!

But first off, I would like to apologize for the looooong delay as:
1) half my life has been consumed by the final projects in college
2) I have been away to the middle of the world some time last month, and haven't had the time to update most things at that time

Since now it's term break, I get to update as often as possible!~ (if time permits).

And now, Why Do You Hate Malaysia Part 3: The Conclusion.
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How do we solve the ever-ubiquitous "tidak apa" attitude that has been the typical Malaysian's mindset for all this years?

We Malaysians need a SERIOUS wake up call. Yeah sure, it all boils down to the education because without knowledge, nobody knows anything. However, education itself is not going to solve it. Because even then, the education system is an utter mess – the teachers don’t care if the students don’t understand the subject just as long as they get their As, so there goes our ‘quality’ education.

What we should have done a long time ago, is to tackle each issue in an efficient manner. If it were me, I don’t care if my ways are ruthless or authoritarian, but as long as I’d solve the problem, everyone will be happy (and perhaps, grateful) in the end. Because somethings, a little push will not do the work; this is where the shoving comes in.

So the first thing for leaders to do is: stop being kiasu. If you really want to help the country grow, you would have done everything you could to improve their lives regardless of whether they are gonna love you or hate you. Example being the Penang MB, he should stop loving his warm seat and do something about his island:-

1)STOP issuing hawkers license – they are other ways to generate job choices for the people, like retraining them for certain works e.g. software training. C'mon, I thought Penang used to be our local Silicon Valley, right?

2) HELP the poor people – because people are poor, they have to become hawkers to survive. So we have to help them financially first.

3) FIRE your town planner – it’s because of this guy that the island is a mess. As in, the road system, the transport system, the arrangement and development of the buildings everywhere, you get the picture.

4) STOP building more confusing roads – same as above. The one about the island = mess.

5) WIDEN the roads – same as No.3. Hell, back in KL, if the road's too small to accomodate heavy traffic during peak hours, the DBKL fellas woulda have widen the road and compensate the owners in no time at all, because it IS their job to provide good service to the citizens. Us.

6) CONTROL the amount of development (especially the overgrowth of condos!!) – same as No.3.
Follow this art principle that has been my college's favorite (and sometimes, over-used and abused) motto: LESS is MORE.

MORE condos do NOT mean MORE money; LESS condos but with excellent facilities and that can accomodate everyone (rich, middle, poor) will give MORE benefits to everyone and the island e.g. more greenery, less monkey attacks on the 'hood.

7) LISTEN to the people and STOP wasting money on getting useless monuments built in the wrong parts of the road =.=
Most people (especially the conservative Penangites) hated the MB for this, because they know in the long run, their younger generation would have lived better lives if the money has been put to good use financially.

Therefore:
8) The best way of all is to fire the MB himself and get another better and more dedicated person for this job. One who will make sure the island GROWS properly and who takes care of the welfare of the people here. One who WILL bring back the shine to the Pearl of the Orient.

And the most important thing to come in play: make full use of your common sense and your brain. Need examples? Here you go:

1) If the leader is not qualified for the job, sack him, bring him down, and elect another person of a better capability. If you’re afraid of being stoned if you act on your own, rally with the others. Strong when united, weak when divided.

2) If you think speeding passed the red lights and hogging the road like it’s your grandfather’s road is right, think again. You may get into an accident, and even if you did survive, your car is totalled and you will be broke paying for the damages to your car AND to the victim you just hit. It’s not worth the risk (and money).

3) If you are not sure of something, ask. Nobody is going to kill you if you ask about something, and nobody is going to label you an idiot or donk or being stupid if you ask about something. Heck, people gain experience and knowledge by learning from others. Standing your grounds to defend a pointless idea is suicide – you gain nothing, everyone hates you, and you WILL become stupid.

4) Nobody is busy the whole year round. Always do the most important thing first, so that you will not be burden on the day you get stuck in a massive jam, stuck in a massive queue, and waste your massive time waiting for everything to get processed. Once again, one has to make proper plans to carry out everything – to fail to plan is to plan to fail.

Last but not least – knowledge is power. (My favorite, by the way.) We must not censored everything we deemed bad – how can Black Metal music means worshipping the Devil when the music genre is just a heavier version of rock? It’s because of the lack of awareness that makes most Malaysians paranoid, like the certain award-winning journalist who deemed Japanese animation is porn just because he saw a series that has a ‘different’ picture on it (AND HELL, that "picture" he saw is a DVD-game, NOT anime).

So you see the negative impacts one causes if one idiot groups a bad thing with everything - generalising without doing proper research is a BIG no-no, IMO. This is because people interpret things differently, that is why we share and discuss our ideas, and from there, new knowledge may have surfaced.
Therefore, without current knowledge, how can there be new knowledge? Without input, there is no output.
Therefore, we must learn everyday. Knowledge is indeed power.
And that is why the education system REALLY needs a revamp.


All this three things might have been sufficient enough to change the mindset of the people and make a better country. Once again, it all boils down to the individuals, because the individuals made up the masses, and it’s the society that holds the power to make or break the nation, either to elect a good leader or overthrown a bad one. It’s up to us to change our mindset, get rid of that tidak apa attitude, and with that, everyone’s lives would have been much more pleasant, and when everyone’s happy, the country will prosper even faster than now. Isn’t achieving the Vision 2020 what we wanted to do?
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And that, concludes my part on the WDYHM thread. It HAS been a long post (if you group the 3 together), but at least I've ranted my part. Now it's my turn to listen to YOUR ranting on your part - ya like the ideas? Ya hate it? Ya got better suggestions? Drop it all in your comments. I'll be waiting ^-^

And last, but not least, a little hint on what's coming after this part: My take on the Malaysian education system (my pet topic XD) or FreeTopic: you guys choose one, I'll give ma points on it.

So yeah. Gracias for reading, and see ya around, guys.

-Lammy-